Did you ever feel The Craft was a calling, no matter how you turned your back on it, did it pull you heart?

I'd like to explain a bit on my question. Since I was a very small child I remember feeling very different from most. My parents would make me sit in church and all I could think about was why didn't I feel this was right. Instead I felt drawn to watching the moon, watching the way the wind stirred the leaves and if the placement meant something, wishing upon stars. I know it sounds so cliche. I don't think that spells cause sparks to twirl or that fairy dust will fly from my fingertips, but that certain herbs can heal the mind, placement of objects can help you see clearer. My fascination isn't with the fiction of the Craft. I don't know, I think I'm lost between what the "world" considers truth and what pulls at my heart. I've kept myself from actually studying it, but I believe in it. For that I'm sure I'm hypocritical. I guess I want the answer that if you feel it, if you believe it, if you feel its calling you, is that what you are meant to do?

Added by: PullingHeart

10-29-2002

Oh how I could relate to your story. I was raised in two different religions. One hating the other. I studied both with open mind and open heart. But the call of the wind and color of the moon on a clear night is what stired my soul. Now, I just go with my gut and I let the wind carry me to where it wants to lead me. I am happier, and less stressed out. The number one law of the wiccan rede is what i fullful-harm none and do as ye will. Harm none-including myself. So I guess my answer is-if it is pulling at you, and it feels right in the gut, don't fight it, go with the direction of the wind.

Added by: brightquartz

11-3-2002

Added anonymously on: 11-3-2002

I have always felt spiritual & a bond with some form of the 'Divine', but despite being educated throughout my school years in Christian schools, I never felt a bond there. I have always loved nature, and seen it as quite a logical 'root of all life', and it was when I happened upon books on Witchcraft that I realised my beliefs had a name. I did go through a phase in my late teens where I was dormant almost (rather than lapsed), but came back stronger & more convinced that this is who I was. I think it's natural to question things, but if it is meant for you, you will know.

Added by: ~faye~

11-10-2002

i got into a real bad car crash a long time ago i all most died a funny thing after that i felt that i was being pulled tords thes kind of books herbs stores even pepole from then on i new what i was to do true story

Added by: alan

11-12-2002

I absolutely know what you mean. I have felt that way my entire life and searched for so long to find something that fit. I have always believed in astrology and palmestry so the astral was no stranger to me. That much is shown in my palm. For a long time I tried to fight it and then I tried to hide it but its just part of who I am. I have tried to explain it perhaps past life experiences - I don't know and it really doesn't matter. I just know that this is who I am.

Added by: ladylionhawk

11-14-2002

I really DO understand you... Most part of my friends (not the close ones) think I'm strange, and when I was a girlie, I remember people looking at me sidely. It's horrible.... Actually I have really cool friends and a cool love, and they accept me as I am. As a Pagan :)

Added anonymously on: 11-15-2002

I totally understand, I too have felt that I don't belong in my family's religion. I feel more deeply for the pagan in me and closer to the planet.

Added by: Kalma

11-18-2002

I am one that was forced to go to church every Sunday and Wednesday, no matter what I did to try to get out of it, I had to go. From a small child I knew that I was going to be different than my family. Going to a Baptist church for years can really make one think. I had even went to the extremes of getting "saved and baptised" even though I never really believed in that stuff. I respect all religions, for everyone has to believe in something, but to answer your question, yes, I have always been closer to Wiccan and Pagan more than anything in my life. If it weren't for my religion, I'd probably not be here. And that is just the truth of it. Blessed Be, Sassy

Added by: Sassy

8-25-2006